Dear one, I know how tender this moment is.
Loss. Transition. We grieve, we stretch, we hang on for dear life. We fall apart, we begin again. We walk through familiar places, disoriented and discouraged, as familiar strategies fail us.
It’s as if one ball gets thrown up in the air, and then a few more join it. Soon, we can end up feeling like those balls – ungrounded and spinning all around.
Loss affects every area of our lives. And one of the most taboo is money.
Money is a challenging issue at any time. Most of us simply were never taught how to manage money, let alone understand our feelings about it.
But when your heart and head are hurting from losing someone dear, money is often the last thing you want to deal with. Yet loss often forces us to deal with money in new, uncomfortable, and tender ways:
Scenario A: Your wife passes away after years of marriage, leaving you to take on managing the money, for the first time (or the first time in years). You find yourself confused and overwhelmed as you struggle to “do” the finances on your own … and each time you sit down to pay the bills, you miss her even more.
Scenario B: You lose a spouse to cancer, then receive a $10,000 bill after his death for an “experimental medical treatment” that insurance won’t cover.
Scenario C: Your father dies, leaving you a large inheritance. You find yourself torn apart by conflicting emotions: grief for the loss, gratitude for the money, and even guilt and shame around what you’ve received.
If you have found yourself in a similar scenario, please give yourself all the gentleness and deep breaths and compassion you can muster.
We all have “money stuff.” Strengths and growing edges. Stories and shame. Challenges and deep, emotional patterns. Loss can bring all of this up to the surface.
This is tender territory. It’s absolutely understandable if this stirs intense emotions for you. One of these may even be the idea that you “shouldn’t” deal with money, right now — that it’s too taboo or even tacky to tackle, at the moment.
It’s tough. It takes time. But, when you’re ready, money can become a powerful portal into healing, forgiveness, un-shaming, and a deep sense of inner peace.
It all starts right here, in the present moment, when you’re ready. So. How is your “money stuff” showing up for you, right now?
- In negative self-talk: “I’m just not good with money,” “I don’t deserve this inheritance,” “I’ll never pay off these bills.”
- In emotional or physical responses: Feeling queasy, headachy, or sleepy when you deal with money. Getting overwhelmed with emotion — or going numb and “checking out.”
- Buried in lost memories: Old stories waiting to be honored and forgiven, or kept alive through family dynamics of guilt, silence, or twisted communication.
Deep breath. Big doses of gentleness.
As attractive as it might seem, “tough love” is not the way to heal emotional wounds. And that old pattern of shaming ourselves, telling ourselves that we’re not “doing it right,” that we’re not good enough, or that we’re unforgivable? This is self-directed violence. It’s unhelpful. And there really is a better way.
Please. Take my hand. Be gentle with yourself, especially in these tough moments. Let me show you a softer, more loving way to respond, next time.
Here’s my favorite tool for working with “money stuff”: The Body Check-In.
I refer to it over and over in my work as a financial therapist because it’s simple, it’s fast … and it truly works. It’s a simple, body-based mindfulness technique that you can use any time you encounter your “money stuff.”
From me, to you, with love: here’s a guided meditation to introduce you to the Body Check-In. It’s super-short (less than 10 minutes), and it’s the best way to understand and experience this gentle, profound practice for yourself.
Grab a cuppa, silence your phone for a moment, and press play:
Not an audio type? Here’s the short run down of how to do a Body Check In:
Pause. Listen. Notice. . .
… how does your body feel?
… what emotions are drifting through you?
… what thoughts are passing through your mind?
… what is your breath doing? Deep/shallow? Soft, quick, or slow?
Without trying to change anything, simply notice. Be open and curious. Let yourself get present, be within your body.
Add more doses of compassion and curiosity.
What do you find? A money story/money pattern/habitual response? Move it to the side. See it next to you. Say hello. Shower it with love.
Breathe. Add another dollop of compassion, and two more teaspoons of curiosity. Breathe.
What to do next:
Repeat, repeat, repeat. Before, during, and after . . . everything. In tough times, when you’re triggered, when you’re stressed, when you’re simply feeling “off.”
- – In the grocery store checkout line.
- – When you are going online to look at your balances.
- – When you’re talking to your accountant, lawyer, or estate planner.
- – Especially when those self-defeating messages come up about how you’re not good at money.
- – … and so many more itty bitty money interactions throughout your day.
The Body Check In is extraordinarily simple — and extraordinarily difficult. It’s my favorite tool because of its simplicity, elegance, and profound power to uncover your money story and open you into so, so much more.
And, it is utterly life changing + supportive. I promise.
I hope this gentle practice supports you and your money relationship during this difficult time. Loss is a deeply personal journey … and so is healing your relationship with money. I believe that the keys to healing both are simple, gentle practices like the Body Check-In.
Practice it often. And in times of doubt, please give yourself massive doses of self-love. Remind yourself:
Change is here, and you may not feel like yourself.
Take a deep breath.
You are in a transition. New rules and strategy may apply.
It’s time to feel all of the feelings that are emerging.
It may take some experimentation before you get a new system in place.
Feel all those feelings. Move some of those cobwebs. Engage your resources: dance, write, journal, hike, have a good cry.
Insert rest and pauses into your new life.
Reach out for support.
Practice regular Body Check-Ins.
And reach out for support when you need it.
Baby step by baby step, you can navigate this new terrain.
And maybe, just maybe, you’ll look back on this time and find a reason to smile. Because this is when you got brave, got gentle, and found an utterly new, deeply loving way to interact with money … and yourself.
With my dearest wishes,
Bari Tessler Linden, M.A. believes in the astonishing healing powers of deep money work, compassionate un-shaming, and dark chocolate. As a Financial Therapist, Mentor Coach, and Mama-preneur, Bari has guided thousands of people to new, empowered, and refreshingly honest relationships with money. Her nurturing style is inspired by her Masters studies in Somatic Psychology at Naropa University and over two decades of work in body-centered therapy. She is the creator of The Art of Money, a year-long money school weaving together personal, couple, and entrepreneurial money teachings. To learn more about Bari and her Art of Money program, visit http://baritessler.com.
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