The Partial Truth of Virtual Relationships

Every friend and every relative, lives a whole other life inside our minds.  There, they occupy worlds that have nothing to do with reality.  These worlds are not play pretend, or unreal.  They just appear more real to us. They inhabit an intimate interaction with ourselves.  We can hear their whispers.  We ‘know’ their thoughts. We often believe our mental version of them more than their real…

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The Loss of Living A Singular Life

Where should I start from?  Where does the beginning sit in a new story?  Is the beginning at the start of the new experience, or at the end of it.  I have been away inside new adventures for the last few weeks.  I swam in turquoise waters in Greece.  I witnessed a rocket blasting off to space at Cape Canaveral with a friend inside of it.  My eyes going from one world to another, adjusting to the…

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Loyalty Is Rare

Heartbreak is tiring. Exhausting.  Consuming. Deeply confusing.  It is hard to understand.  You will often wonder why certain things have to happen.  Especially if you are a good person going about your day, expecting the best and doing your best.  It will be the most heartbreaking for the good hearted ones.  The lovers. The givers.  I am easily heart broken. I live in a constant invisible…

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Living Out Loud At Long Last

When you inject life in your world it bounces off on multiple surfaces at first.  Remember if you are still in the Waiting Room and you invited life to come back, it will try to find you in the confined space.  Sometimes we step out of the Waiting Room in quick bursts.  On our way back inside, life comes in through the door with you.  Now imagine if you have been reentering for a few weeks, the…

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Oranges and Fried Eggs

In the last few months I experienced one of my most significant Life Reentries to date.  I taught myself self care for the first time.  It started with exercise, then it moved to food choices, to my work, my routine, and it landed me on my childhood dream. This journey had many blind spots and I could only see a couple of days ahead.  I was patient with the not knowing, patient with the slowness…

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Running Naked in The Streets

It is a deliverance of self to break free from serving a life that doesn’t give us an inner autonomy. I recently experienced such a thing.  I delivered myself to myself, finally.  What that entails cannot be explained in simple terms.  It is a form of redemption that can only reign after we overstay our old worlds.  In pain. In deep sorrow.  Deep relentless inner captivity and outer servitude.…

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The Brakeless Bike

Imagine that you had a bike with no brakes. You just used your feet when you had to slow it down. You never even questioned why your bike came without brakes, you just rode it. Figuring out along the way how to keep yourself safe. You lived your whole life with this bike and one day someone asked you to take theirs down the street for them. You would do them a favor. Without a thought in the…

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The Field of Ghostly Winds

I have been changing things up in my life lately and I was reminded of the extreme discomfort change brings along with it.  It feels like you are standing in the middle of a field with high winds coming at you from all directions. The winds are like loud voices screaming at you to get off the field.  Expectations. Beliefs. Doubts. Old self.  The Past. The Future.   Everything is coming at you.…

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The First Scratch

Everyone says that love is the most important emotion of all.  It has been documented forever.  After all, literature and poetry over centuries captured the feeling of love.  Like the most famous celebrity.  The Queen of all emotions.  But what if the most profound feeling of our existence is not love, but loss.  And it never got the fame love did. It has been hidden. Shamed. Forbidden.  Cut…

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A Quick Stroll Along My 49 Year Old Life

Today I decided to share a little more about my life.  There are so many new readers who joined the Friday Letter Subscription that I think it's important to tell you about my journey here.  My name is Christina Rasmussen and 49 years ago I was born in Greece in a small town called Volos. When I was growing up, there was definitely an inner guide that lived within myself but it was a very quiet…

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