The Pretenders

Did you know that one of the most authentic relationships of my life is with you? I sit here every week writing exactly what I want to say.  There are no pretenses.  No adjusting my words.  I just tell you things as they are.  As the years have gone by, I understood the importance of this letter in my own life.  It is the one place each week, I can count on to be real.  I have often struggled…

Read More


10 Comments9 Minutes

Short and Sweet

This is a first.  But I have been flying, traveling, experiencing, living so much that this letter did not get to be written today.  Instead, I am sending you a short note to tell you to drop anything that is not important and go do something fun.  I don’t care what it is.  But don’t tell yourself you don’t have time to see a friend, to try a new ice cream flavor, to be free of the to do lists.…

Read More


0 Comments2 Minutes

Hidden Rooms

Oh the worlds we never see. Infinitely surprising.  Devastatingly never ours. Some of them, impossibly foreign.  Further than our physical bodies can get to.  But also vaster than the confines of our minds.  There is so much safety in staying inside the same world.  But with so much unknown loss in it.  Unknown because we could have not imagined ourselves living another life.  I realized that no…

Read More


0 Comments7 Minutes

Five Cupcakes On a Tray

Be yourself.  Be you, they say.  Live your life however you want.  But that is the thing.  Who the heck are you?  What kind of life do you want to live? The old life is not ever coming back. I checked.  A thousand times. This is about the versions of the future you get to choose from.  Often, we don’t even know there is a choice.  Nobody told us.  By the time we let ourselves believe that we have…

Read More


0 Comments9 Minutes

The Partial Truth of Virtual Relationships

Every friend and every relative, lives a whole other life inside our minds.  There, they occupy worlds that have nothing to do with reality.  These worlds are not play pretend, or unreal.  They just appear more real to us. They inhabit an intimate interaction with ourselves.  We can hear their whispers.  We ‘know’ their thoughts. We often believe our mental version of them more than their real…

Read More


0 Comments6 Minutes

The Loss of Living A Singular Life

Where should I start from?  Where does the beginning sit in a new story?  Is the beginning at the start of the new experience, or at the end of it.  I have been away inside new adventures for the last few weeks.  I swam in turquoise waters in Greece.  I witnessed a rocket blasting off to space at Cape Canaveral with a friend inside of it.  My eyes going from one world to another, adjusting to the…

Read More


0 Comments5 Minutes

Loyalty Is Rare

Heartbreak is tiring. Exhausting.  Consuming. Deeply confusing.  It is hard to understand.  You will often wonder why certain things have to happen.  Especially if you are a good person going about your day, expecting the best and doing your best.  It will be the most heartbreaking for the good hearted ones.  The lovers. The givers.  I am easily heart broken. I live in a constant invisible…

Read More


0 Comments7 Minutes

Living Out Loud At Long Last

When you inject life in your world it bounces off on multiple surfaces at first.  Remember if you are still in the Waiting Room and you invited life to come back, it will try to find you in the confined space.  Sometimes we step out of the Waiting Room in quick bursts.  On our way back inside, life comes in through the door with you.  Now imagine if you have been reentering for a few weeks, the…

Read More


1 Comment8 Minutes

Oranges and Fried Eggs

In the last few months I experienced one of my most significant Life Reentries to date.  I taught myself self care for the first time.  It started with exercise, then it moved to food choices, to my work, my routine, and it landed me on my childhood dream. This journey had many blind spots and I could only see a couple of days ahead.  I was patient with the not knowing, patient with the slowness…

Read More


1 Comment7 Minutes

Running Naked in The Streets

It is a deliverance of self to break free from serving a life that doesn’t give us an inner autonomy. I recently experienced such a thing.  I delivered myself to myself, finally.  What that entails cannot be explained in simple terms.  It is a form of redemption that can only reign after we overstay our old worlds.  In pain. In deep sorrow.  Deep relentless inner captivity and outer servitude.…

Read More


0 Comments9 Minutes