Sometimes you have to grow up in one afternoon.  Maybe in an hour. 5 minutes, even.  I wonder why we are not given longer. Why does it have to be almost instant.  On the spot. Nailing us to the wall.  What am I talking about?  Conversations, interactions, experiences that were unexpected and gruesome.  Someone saying something to you that hurt like crazy.  Something happening at…

When Mother Nature knocks on your door, you get down on your knees and pray.  You pray for your family, your self, your neighbors, the people around you. You lose all safety, in an instant.  You lose the ground you have been on.  The physical world around you becomes a threat, an enemy and you pray for Mother Nature to stop the storms, the ice,…

What would it take to live the life of your choosing.  Not of your dreams, even.  But of your choice.  And then, when you dare make a different choice, do you wonder if you made the right one? What if the new choice is a choice you can’t take back.  Something you can’t un-choose.   I ask myself, am I living the right life? Did I…

Today is Eric’s 50th birthday.  My second husband’s birthday.  This morning I woke up grateful for him being alive.  Breathing. Moving. Being here to celebrate his 50th year.  For those who don’t know my story my first husband died when he was 35.  Eric’s first wife also died at 35.  For us, getting to 50 is such a blessing.  We celebrate aging.  We scream it…

Birds are brave.  Not because they fly too high, but because they fly too close.  Too close to our homes and us.  In the last few days I have had so many birds get close to my windows.  They fly, they stay for a few seconds and then they fly away.  I realized that this is how courage may look like for birds.  They step…

Lately, it feels like every day introduces us to a new intense feeling, doesn't it? One of the reasons why everything feels more intense than what intensity normally feels like, is because we are experiencing feelings we haven’t felt before.  There is a spectrum of emotions inside sadness.  And a spectrum of emotions inside joy.  We have thousands of variables when it comes to human…